P!nk - Just Give Me A Reason ft. Nate Ruess

Right from the start

You were a thief

You stole my heart

And I your willing victim

I let you see the parts of me

That weren't all that pretty

And with every touch you fixed them

Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, oh

Things you never say to me, oh, oh

Tell me that you've had enough

Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

It's in the stars

It's been written in the scars on our hearts

We're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

I'm sorry I don't understand

Where all of this is coming from

I thought that we were fine

(Oh, we had everything)

Your head is running wild again

My dear we still have everythin'

And it's all in your mind

(Yeah, but this is happenin')

You've been havin' real bad dreams, oh, oh

Used to lie so close to me, oh, oh

There's nothing more than empty sheets

Between our love, our love

Oh, our love, our love

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

I never stopped

You're still written in the scars on my heart

You're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Our tear ducts can rust

I'll fix it for us

We're collecting dust

But our love's enough

You're holding it in

You're pouring a drink

No nothing is as bad as it seems

We'll come clean

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

It's in the stars

It's been written in the scars on our hearts

That we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

It's in the stars

It's been written in the scars on our hearts

That we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Oh, we can learn to love again

Oh, we can learn to love again

Oh, oh, that we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Linkin Park - CASTLE OF GLASS (featured in Medal of Honor Warfighter)

Take me down to the river bend
Take me down to the fighting end
Wash the poison from off my skin
Show me how to be whole again

Fly me up on a silver wing
Past the black where the sirens sing
Warm me up in a nova's glow
And drop me down to the dream below

'Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see
For you to see

Bring me home in a blinding dream,
Through the secrets that I have seen
Wash the sorrow from off my skin
And show me how to be whole again

'Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see
For you to see

'Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything else I need to be

'Cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see
For you to see
For you to see

One Direction - One Thing

I've tried playing it cool

But when I'm looking at you

I can’t ever be brave

'Cause you make my heart race

[Harry]

Shot me out of the sky

You're my kryptonite

You keep making me weak

Yeah, frozen and can't breathe

Something’s gotta give now

'Cause I’m dying just to make you see

That I need you here with me now

'Cause you've got that one thing

[Chorus]

So get out, get out, get out of my head

And fall into my arms instead

I don't, I don't, don't know what it is

But I need that one thing

And you've got that one thing

Now I'm climbing the walls

But you don't notice at all

That I'm going out of my mind

All day and all night

Something’s gotta give now

'Cause I'm dying just to know your name

And I need you here with me now

'Cause you've got that one thing

[Chorus]

So get out, get out, get out of my head

And fall into my arms instead

I don't, I don't, don't know what it is

But I need that one thing

So get out, get out, get out of my mind

And come on, come into my life

I don't, I don't, don't know what it is

But I need that one thing

And you've got that one thing

Woah-oh-oh-oh

Woah-oh-oh-oh

Woah-oh-oh-oh

[Harry]

You've got that one thing

[Liam]

Get out, get out, get out of my head

And fall into my arms instead

[Chorus]

So get out, get out, get out of my head

And fall into my arms instead

I don't, I don't, don't know what it is

But I need that one thing

So get out, get out, get out of my mind (out of my mind)

And come on, come into my life

I don't, I don't, don't know what it is

But I need that one thing

Yeah, you've got that one thing

One Direction - Little Things

[Zayn]
Your hand fits in mine
Like it's made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

[Liam]
I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes
When you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs,
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh, it's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved
The sound of your voice on tape
You never want
To know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you,
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right, darling, but I want you to.
If I let you know I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you, oh.

[Harry]
And I've just let these little things slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you,
Oh, it's you,
It's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things

[All]
I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you,
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things

Taylor Swift - I Knew You Were Trouble

Once upon a time a few mistakes ago

I was in your sights, you got me alone

You found me, you found me, you found me

I guess you didn't care, and I guess I liked that

And when I fell hard you took a step back

Without me, without me, without me

And he's long gone when he's next to me

And I realize the blame is on me

'Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now

Flew me to places I'd never been

'Til you put me down, oh

I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now

Flew me to places I'd never been

Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground

Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

No apologies, he'll never see you cry

Pretend he doesn't know that he's the reason why

You're drowning, you're drowning, you're drowning

Now I heard you moved on from whispers on the street

A new notch in your belt is all I'll ever be

And now I see, now I see, now I see

He was long gone when he met me

And I realize the joke is on me, yeah!

I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now

Flew me to places I'd never been

'Til you put me down, oh

I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now

Flew me to places I'd never been

Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground

Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

And the saddest fear comes creeping in

That you never loved me or her, or anyone, or anything, yeah

I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now

Flew me to places I'd never been

'Til you put me down, oh

I knew you were trouble when you walked in (you were right there, you were right there)

So shame on me now

Flew me to places I'd never been

Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground

Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

I knew you were trouble when you walked in

Trouble, trouble, trouble

I knew you were trouble when you walked in

Trouble, trouble, trouble

[Music video spoken part:]

I don't know if you know who you are until you lose who you are.

P!nk - So What

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na

I guess I just lost my husband

I don't know where he went

So I'm gonna drink my money

I'm not gonna pay his rent

I've got a brand new attitude

And I'm gonna wear it tonight

I'm gonna get in trouble

I wanna start a fight

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

I wanna start a fight

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

I wanna start a fight

So what? I'm still a rock star

I got my rock moves

And I don't need you

And guess what, I'm havin' more fun

And now that we're done

I'm gonna show you tonight

I'm alright, I'm just fine

And you're a tool so

So what? I am a rock star

I got my rock moves

And I don't want you tonight

Uh, check my flow, uh

The waiter just took my table

And gave it to Jessica Simps

I guess I'll go sit with drum boy

At least he'll know how to hit

What if this song's on the radio?

Then somebody's gonna die

I'm gonna get in trouble

My ex will start a fight

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

He's gonna to start a fight

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na

We're all gonna get in a fight

So what? I'm still a rock star

I got my rock moves

And I don't need you

And guess what, I'm havin' more fun

And now that we're done

I'm gonna show you tonight

I'm alright, I'm just fine and you're a tool so

So what? I am a rock star

I got my rock moves

And I don't want you tonight

You weren't there, you never were

You want it all but that's not fair

I gave you life, I gave my all

You weren't there, you let me fall

So what? I'm still a rock star

I got my rock moves

And I don't need you

And guess what, I'm havin' more fun

And now that we're done

I'm gonna show you tonight

I'm alright, I'm just fine and you're a tool so

So what? I am a rock star

I got my rock moves

And I don't want you tonight

No, no, no, no, I don't want you tonight

You weren't there

I'm gonna show you tonight

I'm alright, I'm just fine and you're a tool so

So what? I am a rock star

I got my rock moves

And I don't want you tonight

Ba, da, da, da, da, da

Beasiswa PPA Part 1

Malam minggu yang membosankan. Bingung mau ngapain. Seharusnya aku bersyukur karena masa-masa nulis laporan belum datang. Kalau ini udah mulai kuliah full dan praktikum aku pasti udah gak bisa santai-santai seperti ini. Tapi entahlah, ada atau tidak ada kerjaan kayaknya sama-sama gak menyenangkan,, hahaha. 

Mau share sedikit cerita aja deh. itung-itung ngramein blog yang udah mulai bersarang. Mungkin kalau ini kamar aku pasti udah banyak laba-laba yang mengambil alih tempat ini. Banyak sarang-sarang yang udah memnuhi atap terus banyak tamu tak di undang berupa serangga-serangga yang entah dari mana munculnya.

Ya udah deh nulis-nulis aja buat ngisi waktu luang. Kemaren aku sempet ikut pendaftaran beasiswa PPA (Peningkatan Prestasi Akademik). Duitnya lumayan sih. Kalau di pedomannya sih katanya 1 bulan 300ribu tapi kata kakak tingkat 1 th dapetnya 4,2 juta. Mau dapet berapa aja terserah asal masuk kantong,, hahaha.

Kemaren ceritanya sempet di PHP juga sama pihak mawanya. Panjang banget cerita perjunganku dari mulai daftar sampai saat ini. Ok kita mulai dari hari pendaftaran. Sebenernya aku dah tau tentang beasiswa ini dari awal pengumumannya tapi buat ngedapetin semua data-data yang diperlukan aku ada sedikit kendala karena faktor X. Akhirnya aku baru bisa ngedaptin semua data-datanya di hari terakhir pendaftaran. Tapi udah beberapa hari terakhir web buat pendaftarannya gak bisa dibuka. Akhirnya aku memutuskan ngampus dan lapor sama pihak mawanya. sebagai info aja. Aku tinggal di Sragen dan kuliah di Solo. Kira-kira butuh sekitar 30-45 menit perjalanan. Aku nunggu di kampus sampai sekitar jam 11 lalu aku pulang. Aku santai aja karena pihak mawa udah menjajikan nanti abis jam 12.

Benar saja, sampai di rumah ternyata webnya udah bisa dibuka. Aku pun langsung daftar online tapi aku kembali menemukan masalah baru. setelah pendaftaran aku mendapatkan kode verifikasi dan tulisannya harus di lanjutkan ke mawa. OMG berarti aku harus balik lagi ke Solo. Ini udah jam 12 berarti kalau aku balik sekarang kemungkinan samapi jam 1. Tapi males juga, panas, capek lagi pula aku telfon temen-temenku yang udah daftar kemaren dan mereka bilang gak harus di lanjutin ke mawa. cukup daftaronline aja. Demi apa coba kalau temenku yang di Jambi harus balik ke Solo cuma buat verifikasi???

Aku pun mencoba menghubungi temenku yang punya nasib sama ma kau yang tadi juga ikut ngampus sama aku. Dia tadi udah bilang kalau gak punya pulsa jadi kalau mau kontak lewat fb aja. Ini aku telfon dari tadi gak di angkat. Aku chat di fb tapi dia on off on off aja. ini anak kemana sih? Waktu terus berputar dan waktuku hampir habis. Hingga tiba saatnya udah jam 1 dan dia baru bisa di hubungi. Dia bilang lagi di kos dan lagi nyari sinyal modem buat daftar soalnya paling lambat hari ini jam setengah 4. Dia juga bilang kalau hpnya lowbet. Lagsung aja aku jelasin inti permasalahannya dan ternyata masalah kita sama. Tapi namanya juga nasib. Ini anak paling terkenal malesnya. Dia udah aku suruh balik ke kampus buat tanya ke mawa tapi dia bilang males. Aku udah nyoba ngeyakinin dia dan tiba-tiba dia off.

Aku positive thinking aja lah. Aku pikir dia udah balik kampus dan tanya ke mawa, kalau nanti seumpama aku emang perlu balik kampus pasti dia mau ngabarin aku. Sebenere aku sebel banget ma dia tapi toh juga mau gimana lagi. Nasibku ada di tangannya. Aku udah nunggu sampai jam 2 tapi gak ada kabar. Posthink aja deh kalau ada yang penting pasti dia udah ngabari aku. Akhirnya aku tinggal tidur dan samapi sore, samapi beberapa hari kemudian dia sama sekali gak ngasih kabar,, #NgelusDada sabaaar

Sampai beberapa hari setelahnya dia sama sekali gak muncul. sms, telfon, fb gak ada juga. Tapi suatu ketika, aku log in fb dan ada statusnya paling atas,,

Lebih baik diam dan tidak menjelaskan apapun

Terserah mau berasumsi seperti apa

tidak bisa memahami keadaan orang lain

Kontan aja aku langsung ngrasa. Ini anak maksudnya apasih. Nyidir??? Oke mungkin aku gak bisa ngerti kalo dia waktu itu lagi sibuk tapi kepentingan kita kan sama jadi apa salahnya aku minta tolong??? dan kenapa juga dia harus ngilang dan gak ngasih kabar apapun ke aku? Aku langsung shock dan seketika log out. Jleb bangaet sumpah deh. WHAT THE FACT???

Aku pasrah aja. Kalau emang itu beasiswa rejekiku pasti aku bisa mendapatkannya . . .

Maroon 5 - One More Night

You and I go hard at each other like we're going to war.

You and I go rough, we keep throwing things and slamming the door.

You and I get so damn dysfunctional, we stopped keeping score.

You and I get sick, yeah, I know that we can't do this no more.

But baby there you go again, there you go again, making me love you.

Yeah, I stopped using my head, using my head, let it all go.

Got you stuck on my body, on my body, like a tattoo.

And now I'm feeling stupid, feeling stupid, crawling back to you.

So I cross my heart and I hope to die

That I'll only stay with you one more night

And I know I said it a million times

But I'll only stay with you one more night

Trying to tell you "no" but my body keeps on telling you "yes".

Trying to tell you to stop, but your lipstick got me so out of breath.

I'd be waking up in the morning, probably hating myself.

And I'd be waking up, feeling satisfied but guilty as hell.

But baby there you go again, there you go again, making me love you.

Yeah, I stopped using my head, using my head, let it all go.

Got you stuck on my body, on my body, like a tattoo.

And now I'm feeling stupid, feeling stupid, crawling back to you.

So I cross my heart and I hope to die

That I'll only stay with you one more night

And I know I said it a million times

But I'll only stay with you one more night

Yeah, baby give me one more night [x3]

But baby there you go again, there you go again making me love you.

Yeah, I stopped using my head, using my head, let it all go.

Got you stuck on my body, on my body like a tattoo.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

So I cross my heart and I hope to die

That I'll only stay with you one more night

And I know I said it a million times

But I'll only stay with you one more night

(Yeah, baby give me one more night)

So I cross my heart and I hope to die (yeah, yeah)

That I'll only stay with you one more night (yeah, yeah)

And I know I said it a million times (yeah, yeah)

But I'll only stay with you one more night (yeah, yeah)

Grenade - Bruno Mars

Easy come, easy go

That's just how you live, oh

Take, take, take it all

But you never give

Should've known you was trouble

From the first kiss

Had your eyes wide open

Why were they open?

[Bridge]

Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash, you did

To give me all your love

Is all I ever asked

Cause what you don't understand

Is

[Chorus]

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Throw my hand on the blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Oh ho,

I would go through all this pain

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes, I would die for you, baby

But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue

Beat me 'til I'm numb

Tell the devil I said "Hey" when you get back to where you're from

Bad woman, bad woman

That's just what you are

Yeah, you smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

[Bridge]

Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash, yes you did

To give me all your love

Is all I ever asked

Cause what you don't understand

Is

[Chorus]

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Throw my hand on the blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Oh ho,

I would go through all this pain

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes, I would die for you, baby

But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire

You'd watch me burn down in flames

You said you loved me, you're a liar

Cause you never ever ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya

Throw my hand on the blade for ya

I'd jump in front of a train for ya

You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes I would die for ya baby

But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same

Oh, you never do the same

No, you won't do the same

You wouldn't do the same

Ooh, you'd never do the same

Ohh, no no no

ADELE - Skyfall

This is the end

Hold your breath and count to ten

Feel the earth move and then

Hear my heart burst again

*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.Net

For this is the end

I’ve drowned and dreamed this moment

So overdue, I owe them

Swept away, I’m stolen

Let the sky fall, when it crumbles

We will stand tall

Face it all together

Let the sky fall, when it crumbles

We will stand tall

Face it all together

At skyfall

Skyfall is where we start

A thousand miles and poles apart

When worlds collide, and days are dark

You may have my number, you can take my name

But you’ll never have my heart

Let the sky fall, when it crumbles

We will stand tall

Face it all together

Let the sky fall, when it crumbles

We will stand tall

Face it all together

At skyfall

Where you go I go,

What you see I see

I know I’ll never be me, without the security

Are your loving arms

Keeping me from harm

Put your hand in my hand

And we’ll stand

Let the sky fall, when it crumbles

We will stand tall

Face it all together

Let the sky fall, when it crumbles

We will stand tall

Face it all together

At skyfall

Let the sky fall

We will stand tall

At skyfall

EXO-K_HISTORY

[Kai] Listen

Neukkil su inni

Nae simjangi

Ttwijireul anha

[ChanYeol] My heart be breakin’

[BaekHyun] Bunhan maeume

Ureodo bogo

Sori jilleo (Ha!)

Oechyeodo bwasseo

[ChanYeol] My pain be creepin’

[D.O] Heukgwa baek ajik namgwa buk kkeuchi naji annneun jeonjaeng Scene dullo nanwin

Taeyangui jeolmang

Meolli dolgo doraseo dasi sijakhaneun gose da wasseo

Oryutuseongijiman baewogamyeo ganghaejil su inneun na

Jeo taeyangcheoreom geodaehan hanaran geol aneun nal

Oh, Oh

Modu hamkke ganeun uri miraero

I need you and you want me

Jiguran i byeoreseo

Oh, Oh

Oh, Oh

Every, Every, Everyday

Naega mandeun History

[SuHo] Break it

Yongmangui banchik

Move it

Pagoeran mideok

[ChanYeol] No more shakin’ like that

[D.O] Magic

Sigani gamyeon

Tto ssiseun deusi

Dasi jaesaeng dwae

[BaekHyun] Sigongganeul ttwieo neomeoseo edenui achimeul kkumkkugo isseo gaja urin

Geureon jonjae

Meolli dolgo doraseo dasi sijakhaneun gose da wasseo

Oryutuseongijiman baewogamyeo ganghaejil su inneun na

Jeo taeyangcheoreom geodaehan hanaran geol aneun nal

Oh, Oh

Modu hamkke ganeun uri miraero

I need you and you want me

Jiguran i byeoreseo

Oh, Oh

Oh, Oh

kkumeul ingtae haneun nal

Urin dasi ireona

[Kai] Ireona, Ireona, Ireona (Turn it on)

Ireona, Ireona, Ireona

[ChanYeol] Yeongwonhalgeora mitgo sipeul ttae

Eonjenga hal geo rago mangseoril ttae

[D.O] Naeiri baro kkeuchinjido molla

Huhae gateun geon ijeobeoryeo duryeowoma~

[SuHo] Jebal saranghae, saranghae, saranghae

Johwaroulsurok wanbyeokhajanha

[BaekHyun] Modeun seulpeumi gippeumi yeogie

Nawa neoneun han saengmyeongin geol~

[ChanYeol] Ya uriga wollae hanaro taeeonatdeon sungan

Galsurok somojeogin i segyereul mannan sungan

Urin jeom, jeom, jeom meoreojyeoga jeom, jeom

[Kai] Dullo kkaejyeobeorin chae himeul irheobeorin taeyang

Galsurok, galsurok, galsurok, galsurok deo

[SeHun] Ganjeolhaetdeon kkumui segyereul dasi majuhaneun sungan

[Kai] Nae gaseumi ttwinda, magu ttwinda

Doong, Doong, Doong, Doong, Doong, Doong

Dolgo doraseo dasi sijakhaneun gose da wasseo

[ChanYeol] Yeah EXO-M, EXO-K

Uriga sijakhaneun mirae History

Jeo taeyang cheoreom geodaehan hanaran geol aneun nal

[Kai] Oh hanaui simjange, taeyange

Kkeuteobsi urin hanaro ganghaejigo isseo

I need you and you want me

Jiguran i byeoreseo

Oh, Oh

Oh, Oh

Every, Every, Everyday

Naega mandeun History

Translation

Listen, can you feel it? My heart is racing

(My heart be breakin')

With an angry heart, I cried and I shouted, "ha!"

(My pain be creepin')

Black and white, still north and south - the endless war scene

The despair of the sun, split in half

* I went round and round from far away

And I came back here to start again

I'm filled with errors but as I learn, I can get stronger

The day we realize that the sun is one that is big and great

Everyone together goes toward our future

I need you and you want me, in this planet called earth

Every, every, every day, the history that I make

Break it! The breaking of desire- Move it! The virtue of destruction

(No more shakin’ like that)

Magic - when time passes, it will play again as if it is rewashed

Transcending time and space, I dream of an Eden's morning

Let's go! We are that kind of existence

* Repeat

I need you and you want me, in this planet called earth

The day we give birth to a dream, we rise up again

Get up, get up, get up (turn it on)

Get up, get up, get up

When you want to believe that it's forever

When you are hesitating, saying that you'll do it someday

You never know if tomorrow will be the end

Forget about regrets, don't be afraid

Please love, love, love - the more harmonized it is, the more perfect

All sadness and joy is here - you and I are of the same life

Ya! The moment we were born as one

The moment we meet this ever-consuming world

We get more, more, more farther away, more and more

The sun broke into two and lost its power

As time goes by, as time goes by, as time goes by

The moment I meet the world of my earnest dreams

My heart races, it jumps, boom boom boom boom boom boom

I went round and round and came back here to start again

Yeah, EXO-M, EXO-K - the future we are about to start - history

The day we realize that the sun is one that is big and great

With one heart, one sun, we are endlessly becoming stronger as one

I need you and you want me, in this planet called earth

Every, every, every day, the history that I make

EXO K - MAMA

Careless, careless. Shoot anonymous, anonymous.

Heartless, mindless. No one. Who care about me?

Irheobeorin chae oemyeonhaneun geot gata chameul subakke eobseo

Nuneul gamjiman

Mama! Ijen naege daedaphaejwo wae saramdeuri dallajyeonneunji

Areumdaun sijeoriraneunge jonjaehagin haenneunji

Ije deoneun saranghaneun beopdo ijeotgo baeryeohaneun mamdo irheotgo

Deungeul dollin chaero saragagi bappeungeol

* Repeat

Turnback!

Jukgo, jugigo ssaugo oechigo. Igeon jeonjaengi aniya.

Dowajwoyo mamamama mamamama Turn back.

Kkaedatge mamamama mamamama Rolling back.

Bakgo chigo pyeoneul nanugo ssaugo igeon geimdo aniya.

Dowajwoyo mamamama mamamama Turn back.

Yeah-

Careless, careless. (mama) Shoot anonymous, anonymous. (mama)

Heartless, mindless. (mama) No one. Who care about me? (mama)

Sarme heorakdoen chukbokbadeun naldeure gamsahago

Maeil saeroun inyeondeureul mandeulgo

Kkaejyeobeorin maeume boda, gippeun sarangeul modu hamkke

Useul su itdamyeon

* Repeat

Careless, careless. Shoot anonymous, anonymous.

Heartless, mindless. No one. Who care about me?

Ingmyeongui gamyeone gamchwotdeon sarui gadeukhan jilsi

Kkeuteul bwado baegopeun deutan

Ijen manjokhae?

* urin deo isang nuneul maju haji anheulkka?

Sotonghaji anheulkka? Saranghaji anheulkka?

Apeun hyeonsire dasi nunmuri heulleo

Bakkul su itdago bakkumyeon doendago malhaeyo mama. Mama.

Eonjengabuteo urin seumateuhan gamoge jabaljeogeuro gatyeo

0gwa 1ro mandeun dijiteore nae ingyeogeul matgyeo

Geogin saengmyeongdo gamjeongdo ttadeutamdo eopgo eoneo sseuregiman

Nadwingguneun sangmakhan beolpan.

Nari galsurok oeroumman deohaejyeo

Uriga inganil su bakke eomneun geon sangcheo batneun geot. Yeah-

Mannago soneul japgo neukkimyeo hamkke ulgo utgo

Darmagago seoro yeongyeoldwae.

Dorikigo sipdamyeon

Translation

Careless, careless. Shoot anonymous, anonymous.

Heartless, mindless. No one. who care about me?

It feels like I'm turning away as I have lost it

There's no choice but to hold it in

Though I shut my eyes

MAMA! Now answer me and tell me why people have changed

Has there even been a beautiful time before?

They forgot how to love and lost their heart to care

They're busy living with their backs turned on each other

The mask of anonymity hides the jealous eye filled with murderous intent

Though they see the end, they're still hungry

Now are you satisfied?

* Why won't we look each other in the eye anymore?

Why won't we communicate? Why won't we love?

We shed tears at the painful reality once again

Please say that we could change things if we wanted, mama mama

At some point, we have voluntarily trapped ourselves in a smart prison

We base our personalities from a digital world made of 0s and 1s

There's no life, emotion or warmth but just garbage language A desolately rolling meadow

Loneliness adds as the days go by

We have to be humans because we get scars yeah

We meet, hold hands, feel, laugh and cry together

We resemble one another and we are connected

But if you want to turn it back

* Repeat

Turnback!

Die, kill, fight, shout - this is it a war

Help us mama mama mama mama mama turn back

Help us realize mama mama mama mama rolling back

Clash, hit, take sides, fight - this is not a game

Help us mama mama mama mama mama turn back

Yeah

Careless, careless. (mama) Shoot anonymous, anonymous. (mama)

Heartless, mindless. (mama) No one. Who care about me? (mama)

If only we can all be thankful for the blessed days that grant us life

If only we can make new relationships

Rather than broken hearts, having a joyful love altogether

If only we can all smile together

* Repeat

Careless, careless. Shoot anonymous, anonymous.

Heartless, mindless. No one. who care about me?

Skyfall

Aku masih menunggu di tangga. Aku bisa melihat semuanya dari sini. Para apis yang sudah mulai sibuk kuliah, yang sudah mulai kembali lagi kerutinitasnya sehari-hari. Mungkin yang kemaren-kemaren udah sempet mudik ke Jakarta, Mataram, Jambi, tangerang dan lain-lain, tapi sekarang mereka semua sudah kembali ke sarangnya, disini, di gedung ini, di tempat semuanya bermula dan berakhir.

Aku masih menunggu giliranku, harap-harap cemas melihatnya, ada sebuah keyakinan besar di hatiku, tapi disamping itu aku khawatir. Kulihat papan itu masih berputar. Masih ada orang disana yang sibuk memutar-mutar papan itu, mungkin mencari sebuah pengumuman.

Akhirnya orang itu pergi. Dag Dig Dug Deeeerrrr.... #BacaLebay Jantungku berdebar kencang. Entah kenapa ada sebuah keyakinan besar bahwa aku di terima. Aku mulai memutar-mutar papan itu. Mencoba menemukan satu pengumuman. Pengumuman yang nantinya akan benar-benar mengubah moodku.

Aku menemukan pengumuman yang kucari. 1 kertas yang tertulis 33 nama. Aku mencari namaku dengan cepat. Kok gag ada??? Jantungku berdebar lebih kencang lagi. Mungkinkah? Sekali lagi kusapukan pandanganku pada kertas itu. Tetap saja tidak ada. Namaku sama sekali tidak tertulis di dalamnya.

Aku tidak diterima. Aku gak masuk. Aku gagal. Moodku seketika berubah. Aku malas, lesu dan tidak percaya dengan apa yang kulihat. ternyata aku memang gak masuk ke Himabio. Aku sudah gak nafsu lagi melihatnya. Akupun mengajak FN untuk segera meninggalkan tempat itu. Tapi dia masih ingin melihat pengumuman itu, mencari namanya dan juga nama FA dan AD. Ternyata mereka diterima. Dari kami berempat hanya aku yang tidak diterima. FN pun membacakan satu-persatu nama yang tertulis disana dan itu memebuatku tak percaya. Nama-nama yang bahkan sama sekali tidak terpikirkan olehku justru ada disana.

Aku kecewa pada diriku sendiri. Apa yang telah kukatakan sehingga aku tidak lolos dalam interview itu. Apa mungkin akau salah menjawab pertanyaan? Ada yang salah? Aku mengutuki diriku sendiri. Dimana sih letak kesalahanku? Aku berusaha bersikap tenang dan menutupi semua kekecewaanku. Aku berusaha untuk bersikap biasa saja.

FN yang ikut melihat pengumuman bersamaku shock dan marah-marah sendiri. Kenapa aku tidak diterima? Kenapa yang diterima malah orang-orang seperti ini? Aku juga tidak habis pikir. Tapi apalah dayaku toh nasi sudah menjadi bubur. Ketika bertemu FA dan AD pun melakukan hal yang sama. Mereka marah-marah sendiri. Tidak terima dengan hasinya. Apalagi A, dia masuk karenaku dan devisi yang dia pilih pun sama denganku.

Aku teringat pengisian form pendaftaran kemaren. Aku mengisi dan mengirimnya pada malam hari. Sendirian. Dipagi harinya aku ikut mengisi form temanku, 1 aku mengirimkannya dan aku mengisikan yang satu lagi. Lalu dimana letk kesalahannya? Rasanya aku ingin sekali marah. Ingin menanyakan langsung ke Ketumnya. Kenapa aku tidak di terima?

Seharian itu aku sama sekali tidak dapat berkonsentrasi. Aku yang sensistif atau bagaimana. Aku merasa teman-temanku sama sekali tidak mengerti akan perasaanku. Memang diawal mereka sempat marah dan tidak terima tapi itu hanya sebentar. 15 menit kemudian aku merasa mereka benar-benar tidak punya hati. Dengan santainya mereka berulang-ulang kali mengatakan soal himabio di depanku. Apa mereka tidak tahu dengan apa yang aku rasakan?

Aku kecewa dan sakit hati... :(

Killing Me Inside - Melangkah

Ku takkan menyerah

Ku takkan berhenti hadapi semua 

Tak akan peduli cacian mereka 

Takkan pernah bisa hentikan langkah kita 

*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.Net

Selamanya percayalah

Selamanya melangkahlah

Jangan pernah berhenti kawan

Kita pasti akan bertahan

Jangan pernah menyerah bila kita bersama

Kita pasti kan selalu bisa melangkah

Ku masih di sini menanti semua

Mimpi-mimpi kita saatnya telah tiba

Cacian mereka takkan pernah bisa

Hentikan langkah kita

Selamanya percayalah

Selamanya melangkahlah

Jangan pernah berhenti kawan

Kita pasti akan bertahan

Jangan pernah menyerah bila kita bersama

Kita pasti kan selalu bisa melangkah

Selamanya percayalah

Selamanya melangkahlah

Selamanya percayalah

Selamanya melangkahlah

Jangan pernah berhenti kawan

Kita pasti akan bertahan

Jangan pernah menyerah bila kita bersama

Kita pasti kan selalu bisa melangkah

RASAKU ATAS ASAKU

Aku tak tau apa arti semua ini

Kadang aku iri

Kadang hatiku sakit

Kadang aku berpikir

Kenapa aku tidak bisa seperti kalian?

Kenapa aku harus seperti ini?

Mengapa aku harus disini?

Mengapa aku harus melakukan ini?

Tak sengaja aku melihat kalian

Tak sengaja aku memperhatikan kalian

Sungguh bahagia kelihatanya

Sungguh senang rasanya

Hai kawan....

Aku rindu kalian 

Aku ingin bersama kalian 

Aku ingin berkumpul lagi

Tapi aku menyadari

Aku tak bisa

Aku tak mampu

Aku tak sanggup

Sekarang duniaku dan duniamu sudah berbeda

Sekarang kegiatan kita sudah lain

Sekarang jalan kita sudah tidak sama

Sekarang hidup kita sudah milik masing-masing

Satu hal yang sangat ku inginkan

Aku ingin bebas seperti kalian

Melakukan sesuatu menurut kemauan

Melakukan sesuatu dengan kebahagiaan

Kalian bisa tetap bersama

Berkumpul bersuka cita

Bermain dan bercengkrama

Tapi aku???

Aku disini tanpa teman

Aku disini sendirian 

Masih mencari kebahagian

Masih mencari arti kehidupan... yang belum kutemukan

Doakan aku kawan

Semoga aku bisa seperti kalian

Menemukan kebahagiaan sejati

Menemukan tujuan nurani

Menemukan jawaban... atas semua pertanyaan ini

Perjalananku masih panjang

Aku masih harus berjuang

Aku masih harus berperang

Aku masih harus berusaha... *Keep Fighting!!!

Aku sebenere gag niat bikin puisi. Cuma pengen nulis aja. Kalo mau di bilang puisi kayaknya bukan tapi kalo cuma sekedar tulisan juga bukan. Yang jelas ini curahan hati atas apa yang aku rasakan.